Darkness may fall....

okay..

 i'm sorry...keep on moving..but i'm gonna stay here for now:

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promise. :)

Cuzins

Mj sent me this picture....of my three cousins! :) They are so gorgeouuuus! :) That''s (from left to right) Rina-Kina-Paula. Gaad. I think they're soo big now.. hahahaha... was thinking tuloy, what if I grew up there? Definitely (and hopefully) i'll be taller..hahahaha... :) or maybe mas mataba ako.. but not too much! :) hahaha. :) Yan, I'm thinking now tuloy how my life would have turned out if I was there... and I don't know why I feel this...but I'm curious to know that...and i'm even excited to know! :) hahaha! :)

Okay, i haven't been blogging right... A while ago I was talking to Aynie..and told her about how I soo wanted to blog about a lot of things but just couldn't coz I don't know how to start..where...and how to write about things. I have two papers due tomorrow...and I have to write about one dilemma (i may be facing or might have faced..) and then I have to also write about the one tangible thing I have that I cannot live without. Hay...

Honestly... i am not okay. I thought I was okay.... but then my good friend Aynie told me... it's only ME na nagpapalungkot sa sarili ko. That's why maybe I got to thinking how my life will be if i lived some place else... or how i am if I went to a different school... I sound like i'm regretting..

Hay. I'll stop blogging for a while... and maybe when i'm back... baka ibang blog na.. baka lang. Sana when i come back...i've got answers. OR maybe i'm losing it....thhis skill to write..

i'm out.

Had a pretty wonderful day today...

Contrary to what I wrote the other day (people were sending me text messages...asking if i was okay...) I don't even know why I wrote that way when infact I am very happy! :)

I don't know why... is it because I watched Happy Feet (thrice!) hahahaha! :) Or that I am just too excited to start working on our Christmas Fashion Show? Yesterday (Monday), we met 5 brave ENTREP girls who auditioned for the Entrep Model we're having. We decided to put one up so we won't have to deal with others (joke! hahaha! eh basta ganun na un!) Ayun.... after the short audition, we talked about our fashion show for our upcoming Christmas Party...and suddenly, I felt this rush...and i just kept talking and sharing ideas...and my mind was flowing with sooo much ideas and suddenly, yun! I felt soooo happy! :)

Was soooo giddy and perky and happy and hwatver(hahaha!) that I found myself in a cab going to SM Fairview with Mhela, Aiko and Angela... Don't know how it happened but un! :) hahahaha!! :) After looking around, we decided to watch Happy Feet (aiko and mhela's first time to see the movie) and dun pala sa Sm Fairview you can repeat the movie! hahahaha...so twice namin pinanuod?! hahahhahaha!! Happy feet overload! :)

My favorite line was when Mumble said, "my feet are happy too!" when his dad asked why he's kinda giddy and un-penguin whatver! hahaha. :) I just loooove that part! It makes me really really happpy! :) hehehehe!!!

Last night, a friend of mine told me how "i kinda changed..." and how I seem to "forget people"... It's really funny! :) I mean a lot of people noticed my "happiness" lately... parang andaming positive na nangyari suddenly! I really changed. :) I mean in a good way I hope. :) I don't know why I suddenly felt so eager to learn and study again... and to save (yeah...i'm saving a looot!), to try not to think sooo much! I'm just sooo happy about everything! ! :) I loove lifeeee!! :)

I realized...I'm not happy coz of someone... maybe there is someone (and thank you) but that's not the point. I think...no, I know that this happiness is something inner. I mean, now I can say i'm complete! :) everything else is BONUS. :) and i'm just so blessed! :) hahaha! :)

But one thing is for sure... i've realized... the reason why i've been sooo sad...so depressed... so mad...was that i'm soooooooooooo overweight....overweight because of all these excess fats...of all the pain i've been keeping, the anger...the hurt and the bitterness...all makin me feel sooooo BAD. Na i can't move and can't think right... like i was too tired...

Who wants that kind of life?

Surely not me anymore...

So slowly, I took the risk...and exercised. ate right. felt right. and now i'm in shape! :) hahahahaha! :0 now i can move freely and be giddy..hyper and excited! :) I learned to let alll these excess go! anything i do not need..i turn em into something more useful. :)

I'm just so happy. :) When I sleep, peaceful... When I wake up... peaceful pa din. :) Such happiness is scary... but I gotta share it to everyone! :) Sir Racho told us something that made me happier....'

                             DESTINY...IS YOUR CHOICE. In the end, it;s YOU who make things happen

White Christmas Party December 20, 2006 DISH Abs-cbn featuring Christmas Interpretation by MC- Fashion Institute of the Philippines Design Students and designs by John Herrera. :)

Aiko and I were talking the other....how our "blogs" used to be filled with really good stuff (good stuff= meaningful entries)....and how sad that we can't even write one good meaningful entry... I kind of envy...yeah maybe envy is a good word to describe what i'm feeling... i envy how people write with sense... like they don't just write what happened... hahahaha. :) okay i'm not making sense...

I'm really going to start "writing" soon. I miss writing... it's like a form of reflection for me... hay I guess I need to write again... been keeping a lot... or maybe i just need to talk to an old friend... go back to the basic (ayniee).

hay i'll write when i'm in the mood...there are just soo mnany things that I need to do...and think of! pero i'm happy. really. :)

This is so funny. (hahahahaha!) I think I got sick (i got colds) because of talking too much. Hahaha! :) This is the first time I got "ngo-ngo" (yeah, being ngo-ngo is a sign that i'm talking too much!) na maaga pa like 6pm pa lang... I usually get ngo-ngo ng mga 11 pm.. ahahaha! Jhen and Angela are sooooooo kulit! hahahaha! :)

OMG!  you guys NEED to see HAPPY FEET!!!! sooooo cute!!! :) It's my favorite movie!!! hahahaha and I really really want to see it again!! :) hahahahaha!!! kahit 10 times pa!!! walang part ng movie na na-bored ako or something! Thankieee to Pola, Tin, MC, Tracy, Cla, Elaine and Ayla!! :0 hahahaha! next week ulitt! :) hehehehe! :)

I like this day. :0 I got to spend an hour and a half bonding with Sheree, J-ann and Marixie! Gaad I miss them sooo much!!!! :) missed pala!!! :) haaay i can't wait till we go out ulit!! :)

Hindi ko naabutan si Bor...again.again. :) hahaha ohwell! next time! :)

Also, I got to spend time with Nanay Ruthie and Tita Mel uleet...like before!! I super misssss them sooo much...

oops..i'll update tom promise...just hafta do my homeworks!!

When you're..yeah, trying to move on... here's what i've been doing. :) hahaha. :)